"Wings" - Tori Amos Very few things surprise me. But...considering the exhaustion I’m still recovering from and hearing about the recent loss that my beautiful cousins are going through, it surprises me that I still manage to get out of bed with so many heavy thoughts in my head. I think my co-trainer said it best. A few days ago, he asked a group of us, "Have you ever suddenly felt the need to break down when you watched something emotional happen? " He explained, " Like seeing someone reunite with their lost pet or maybe witnessing an act of kindness...does all of this trigger immense sobbing?" This couldn't be any more true for me. He went on to say something that struck a chord in all of us... " We are sensitive to this because we are, Caregivers ." We have to be on most of the time, even when we are supposed to be off. We are wired to constantly help others that when we finally have a moment to a
I miss you a lot. Most of the time, it saddens me for letting go for as long as I did. The truth is you have my heart. You always listened. You never pushed me away for talking too much. I can make sense... I can spit out nonsense... You were still there. You are here. Limitless. Timeless. Real. Thank you for never really leaving me. Even when I left.