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"Silent All These Years" - Tori Amos


I'm exhausted, but still awake. Overwhelmed, but restless. I'm a sleep-walking contradiction, craving junk food at almost 3AM. I think I hear an owl outside my window. Or is that my stomach? I already wrote in you, but for some reason I'm not satisfied and yet I don't know what I want to write. I do know that my girl Tori had to come out and shine today even though there's still a few hours until the sun comes up and many more opportunities set at a decent hour to do them in. But she's persistent and I'm too tired to be stubborn for once.

It's gonna be a lazy Sunday, but my mind is racing. I'm caught in too much thought. I miss long conversations of getting to know someone who really wants to know me. I miss pleasant surprises and a real moment to capture a memory. I haven't made a good one in a while and wouldn't mind it so much to try again.

Lyrics:

excuse me but
can i be you for a while
my DOG won't bite
if you sit real still
i got the anti-christ
in the kitchen
yellin' at me again
yeah i can hear that

been saved again
by the garbage truck
i got something to say
you know but NOTHING comes
yes i know what you think of me
you never shut up
yeah i can hear that

but what if i'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his
with her name still on it
hey but i don't care
cause sometimes i said
sometimes i hear my voice
and it's been
HERE silent all these years

so you found a girl
who thinks really deep thoughts
what's so amazing
about really deep thoughts
boy you best pray
that i bleed real soon
how's that thought for you

my scream got lost in a paper cup
you think there's a heaven
where some screams have gone
i got 25 bucks and a cracker
do you think it's enough
to get us there

but what if i'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his
with her name still on it
hey but i don't care
cause sometimes i said
sometimes i hear my voice and it's been
HERE silent all these

years go by will i still be waiting
for somebody else to understand
years go by if i'm stripped of my beauty
and the orange clouds raining in my head
years go by will i choke on my tears
till finally there is nothing left
one more casualty
you know we're to EASY easy easy

well i love the way we communicate
your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
let's hear what you think of me now
but baby don't look up
the sky is falling

your MOTHER shows up in a nasty dress
it's your turn now to stand where i stand
everybody lookin' at you
here take hold of my hand
yeah i can hear them

but what if i'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his with her name still on it
hey but i don't care
cause sometimes i said
sometimes i hear my voice
i hear my voice
i hear my voice
and it's been HERE silent all these years
i've been here silent all these years
silent all these
silent all these years

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