"Hurt" - Nine Inch Nails (Original by Johnny Cash) I'm blocked by a lot. I'm sitting here, stuck. I've been in a funk all day. Thinking, but not thinking. Focusing, but losing myself. I have projects to get done. I have deadlines to meet. I have a stupid job to keep. But...I no longer care for it now that I've learned that someone much stronger than me is draining away in a hospital room 6-stories high. It's supposed to put things into perspective, but sadly nothing's changed. The same sh*t is still happening and if that someone was well enough they'd agree with me. They say, "No visitors." Do I listen or do I go anyway? Do I still have time? Doctors gave them days and I'm clueless to when the countdown began. I've never been good at this and I'll never want to be. I can't do hospitals. I can't do goodbyes. I can't see someone that started out with me, not finish with me. Not again. Not for good. This is different....
A song pops up in my head in bed, carrying with it a memory that may not always be described in words. So the music in it of itself allows me to tell my stories. This is my writer's pen. This is my '3' and my 'M'. This is my passion in life; my blog; my light and though it may occasionally lose its shine, it will never completely leave me in the dark.