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After

"Time after Time" - Sara Evans (original by Cyndi Lauper) A quaint kitchen. Time without an agenda. A couple together for almost 40 years. Accompanied by a cup of coffee and a plate of merienda, we sat for hours and talked about life, love, and the "good ol' days." Pictures upon pictures lay scattered on the table of how things used to be, how they once used to look and how so much of it all has changed. I watched closely as she picked up a photograph of herself. She was wearing a sequined maroon dress with gold accessories. I watched as she carefully traced the surface of her own face as if it was no longer her own. He didn't pick any up, but yet he was still able to illustrate each captured image from memory. She pulled out a small album with a decorative silver cover. I sat quietly and opened it as they shared their stories page after delicate page, some beautiful and some not so beautiful. They reminisced about a lost time filled with friend

I. Am. Happy.

"If I Fall" - Aqualung Over a week has gone by. It started off on an awful note and at one point I almost forgot that there's more to me than the profession that once used to inspire me. I pushed myself to continue to endure it up until the fourth day because on that day, I promised to walk away, clock out and let it go. I packed my bags and left my baggage behind. I sat inside what used to be one of my worst fears and said, "Man up, lady." I pushed up against the window seat and looked out. The plane moved quickly up the runway, but my eyes stayed glued to it until pavement turned into sky. I knew in less than an hour I'd soon be in what will be my new home. It scares me to think that I'm about to go through such a change and this is why for over six months, I've been hanging onto this ridiculous belief that every experience with any man is the same. I failed to embrace the fact that I no longer had to be with just "any" man. I k

Maybe

"She Wouldn't Be Gone" - Blake Shelton I've been listening to this a lot. Could mean many things, but it ain't the obvious. Nothing ever is, my dear. I've been living up to this saying that I got from the movie Jurassic Park , "...[They're] so preoccupied with whether or not they could, they didn't stop to think if they should." This has been my motto, especially professionally. I know, weird right? I have this heartbreaking love song (story of my previous love life) and I threw in a quote from a dinosaur flick and I'm talking about work? Really? Ok, let me explain. My job is different than most jobs because it's for a company that literally built itself from the ground up and is now the largest of its kind. Though this is a remarkable achievement and one cannot deny that they worked hard to gain such an advantage, it doesn't necessarily mean it's always admirable. One of the downfalls for being so big is forgetting about the

Someone'll

"Someone Who'll Watch Over Me" - Jean Louisa Kelly I think of a coffee cup resting on top of a saucer inside an old-fashioned diner. I think of a cushioned red booth, a classic Ketchup bottle, and a tall glass with a metal lid filled with sugar. I think of a napkin dispenser, tiny creamers piled high inside a ceramic bowl, and straws wrapped up in thin, white paper. I think of linoleum floors, vintage artwork and old, framed photographs on the walls. I think of a waitress wearing an apron and penny loafers with her hair rolled up in a bun with a #2 pencil sticking out. I think of this setting when I think of comfort. I think of comfort when I think of someone I could trust, sitting across from me in this booth. This someone of mine will pour in my cream and sugar (yes, I'll try regular sugar every once in a while). This someone 'll stir it carefully with a teaspoon to make sure the excess doesn't spill over even with the saucer there to catch it. My someone &

Illusions

"Both Sides" - Joni Mitchell I heard a snippet of this song forever ago and loved it instantly. It played on an episode of the Wonder Years and has carefully tucked itself away in my heart. I wanted to find it again, but I didn't know where to begin and yet every time I've blogged, the memory of it never inched its way forward to remind me. It came to me yesterday morning while in passing. It was playing softly in the background of too much sound and I asked around to get its name. Someone told me "California," but sadly they were wrong. I couldn't sleep last night so I took my phone through my quiet home and sat patiently on the sofa until the sun came up. The whole room appears cold at first, sending off a fluorescent glow that bounces off from the mirrored wall's reflection against the beige paint that surrounds it. In minutes, the beam of the sunlight hits through the blinds and onto the wooden floor. Its reddish tone pierces through the subtle

Goal

"Volcano" - Damien Rice feat. Lisa Hannigan I'm sitting here after a full day of keeping myself busy. After having sat on my hands all last night and tonight trying to fight the urge to write. After preventing the Blog Bitch from coming out because I didn't want to spill out more of my secrets for all to see, but there's no avoiding it. So, I'll once again reveal it. I know as it seems that it was for my own good that this false sense of security was lifted off of me because I wouldn't have discovered that the things I desire can't be stashed safely behind a white picket fence in a cookie-cutter home. Yes, I thought the next step in this age would be to have something real, to hold onto something true, and to own what's rightfully mine. I had a game plan and it was a strong one. I would take care of mostly everything even if it meant that the "everything" I had was actually in the hands of someone else entirely. It wrecked me to say the

Sex Appeal

"Criminal" - Fiona Apple If my sex appeal had a song, this would definitely be it...except of course with more meat on its bones. Lyrics: I've been a bad bad girl I've been careless With a delicate man And it's a sad sad world When a girl will break a boy Just because she can Don't you tell me to deny it I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins I've come to you cuz I need Guidance to be true And I just don't know Where I can begin What I need is a good defense Cuz I'm feelin' like a criminal And I need to be redeemed To the one I've sinned against Because he's all I ever knew of love Heaven help me for the way I am Save me from these evil deeds Before I get them done I know tomorrow brings The consequence at hand But I keep livin' this day like The next will never come Oh help me but Don't tell me to deny it I've got to cleanse myself Of all these lies till I'm good enough for him I've got a lot to lose

Forever

"Time of the Season" - The Zombies This song is so damn sexy to me. Just like a man who knows how to be a man and who knows how to make me feel things I never thought I'd feel. Keep it up and you'll have me forever. Lyrics: It's the time of the season When love runs high And this time, give it to me easy And let me try with pleasured hands To take you in the sun to (promised lands) To show you every one It's the time of the season for loving What's your name? Who's your daddy? (He rich) Is he rich like me? Has he taken, any time (To show) To show you what you need to live? Tell it to me slowly (tell me what) I really want to know It's the time of the season for loving http://www.oldielyrics.com/lyrics/the_zombies/time_of_the_ http://zom.thefondfarewells.com/images/zom15.jpgseason.html