Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda

"In the End" - Linkin Park

I took a warm, relaxing bath in excruciatingly hot water and managed to give myself a fever. I tried to unwind and screwed it up completely. Go f@ckin' figure. I had a night planned out for me and instead it turned to sh*t.

I should've taken an alternate route after work to give myself something to do other than mope around the house. I could've went to Best Buy or Target and browsed around for stuff I didn't need and buy them anyway. I would've gone to the movies with my one, free ticket to get lost in someone else's drama, but I never go anywhere alone. I should've gone out with my girls, but I was lazy. I could've visited a nearby Starbucks for a venti caramel machiato, but I had my fill and didn't want to go there again.

I should've left Facebook alone. I should've just stayed on my page, but I let curiosity get the best of me. I should've just left it to one pic and not clicked on the rest. I could've left it as is as I've done this past week.
I would've talked to you, but you didn't answer.
I would've yelled at you, but you weren't listening.
I could've texted more, but what for?

I could've revisited the past just because I can and no one was watchin'. I would've headin' east, but you pissed me off. You should've kept "your two cents" to yourself when I told you why I was irritated.
It's just a pic. Not everyone is like you.
You don't know him. Not everyone strays.
You aren't him.

So different, and so much alike. Now the one big mistake the both of you chose to make is losing me.

The End.

Lyrics:

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how

I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised

It got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

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