When Your Eyes Can Finally See

"Fidelity" - Regina Spektor

I absolutely adore this song. It reminds me of a very good girlfriend of mine. One I was secretly attracted to in a way because I was so drawn to her free spirit and quirky sense of style that only she can pull off. I admired her ability to just throw whatever on and be comfortable just not totally fitting in. She had this way about her. Her spontaneous energy and tom-boyish charm was so appealing and full of heart. I am not implying that this attraction was an intimate one by any means, but I am saying that it intrigued me just how well she carried herself. She is still a wonderful friend of mine, but sadly a lot of her original drive that made her stand out...disappeared. It was replaced by the stresses of every day life and a boy who just does not know what a great woman she really is, so much so that she is quickly forgetting it herself.

It surprises me just how much people change for other people and sacrifice so much of themselves to make someone else happy. It amazes me that within these last few weeks alone, the people that I wish could have everything they could ever want, are admitting to settling for less. They love more than they are loved, do more than what they receive in return, and extend their every being to care for someone the only way they know how: with their all.

They remind me of me. The same beautiful people who tell me I should be loved beyond my every dreams, refuse to see they too, lack this very thing in their own reality. They see this so clearly looking out as I do looking in, but yet I am still struggling within myself and they are continuing to stay just to see if things will ever change for the better. It is unbearable at times watching two people together who really do not know how to love each other, but I guess it is truly hard to just open, open your eyes.

Lyrics:

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart

And suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you
Kiss me so sweet and so soft

Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs
Just to break my own fall

Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course
It's gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better!

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
Breaks my heart

When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart

http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/regina-spektor-lyrics/fidelity-lyrics.html
http://blogs.phillynews.com/inquirer/inthemix/2008/07/ani_opener.html

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