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My Personal Void

"Never Say Never" - The Fray

Tomorrow would've marked a month since I let my words fill you.  It wasn't intentional and it wasn't like I had nothing to write.  I just haven't found my comfort zone yet.  But now, it's as if I can't get enough of you and I don't ever want to.  So I'm taking advantage of this greed.

Right now I'm staring out of my new office window, 4 floors up and above a brick mantle filled with framed photos and two wilted plants. I have two books on my desk, "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff" and "Keep Calm and Carry On." I have yet to read them. I have a stack full of ungraded papers, a box of tissue and a half-empty bottle of water. Or is it half-full? I have a stapler, a labeler and a highlighter that should be put to good use right about now. But I've been distracted since I woke up at the crack of dawn this morning. Since I hopped onto the train ride here. Since I broke my new boots in on my usual walk and since I drank my delicious grande vanilla latte that I now realize I need to survive the day.

Sometimes when I feel like coming back to you something stops me.  As if the material I have isn't concrete enough, as if I may be spending too much time rewriting the same thing, and as if I'm wasting my time altogether.  So all I end up with is a fist full of "as ifs" and nothing ever coming out of it besides all these different excuses I vow to never make again.  Then a week turns into more weeks and more excuses come rolling in.  Maybe I'm flustered with all the changes they made to you and with all the changes I've been through.  You know how I feel about change.  Maybe I feel like no one's really reading anyway and that I'm writing into a void so how can a void miss me? 

Lyrics:

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go



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