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Hurt Like Hell

"Hard To Say I'm Sorry" - Az Yet

I'm usually a fan of the originals. Don't get me wrong...I do love Chicago, but for some reason every time I think of this song this remake pops into my head. Every ooh-ooh and bop-bop comes to mind. Maybe because it carries with it so many memories.

1996...I was a junior in high school. A year of ups and plenty of downs. I was in a long-distance, long-term relationship. Being only 16, it carried with it a lot of confusion and not to mention pressure to grow up faster than I probably should have. What can I say? The teenage heart gets curious and starts to explore outside of familiar territory to see how far it can go before it breaks. And of course gossip spread like wild fire. Then came the bullshit. So, it was also the year I intentionally gained most of my enemies.

I want to say that none of it hurt. From the rumors to the millions of mistakes I've made along the way, to the people I took advantage of and of course, to those that came back with a vengeance. I want to say with confidence that everything was petty and easy to deal with at the time.

But I'd be lying. It hurt like hell.

I wish I could've said my "I'm Sorrys" and have it meant something. I wish some of them would've apologized in return. But nothing was ever really said and we just left it at that in hopes that one day we'd all get over it. It doesn't seem to matter much now. I was young, dumb and naive. I didn't know what I was getting myself into. And even if I did, I would've never admitted to being that cruel or even that deceiving. Thinking back, there really isn't a good explanation. It was just how I wanted to be at the time.

It's true what they say, Karma does come back like a bitch. And though it was hard, it was inevitable. I had mine. I know they must've had theirs too...

Lyrics:

Everybody needs a little time away
I've heard her say
From each other
Even lovers need a holiday oooh
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay

And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you, baby
And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

ooooh bop bop bop bop

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Not for a day
From your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away
Away
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go

I can't let go

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