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I'm My Own Worst Enemy

"Fire and Rain" - James Taylor

I wanted to blog about a song today, but nothing really came to me and I left my lil' post-it at home...So, my bf switched the TV on right before I got on his computer to type away. The movie, Remember the Titans was on at the scene when the head coach was talking to his daughter. The song playing in the backgound was this one. And even though this is what got me singing to it, it's a song that I always sing. Most of the time, I sing it when I'm trying to calm down... And after a day like today, I'd say it's a better time as any.

I was stuck at the doctor's office for almost 3 hours! Got poked by a needle 3x's cuz the bastard couldn't find my, "little veins hiding underneath such thick skin." Waited over an hour for my prescription that was ready, but no one bothered to call out my name! After being told that my left shoulder is a wreck, my stomach is in dire need of fiber, and my bones must have more calcium! All because I'm approaching in age where things can pretty much go downhill...

So now I'm bruised, my confidence shot, my health in jeopardy and my well being in a whirlwind of trouble...thanks doc!

I know she meant well, but telling me that I must reduce my stress and improve my diet is like telling me to do something I really don't know how to do. I wanted to say to her, "Don't you think, doc that if I knew how to do that then I wouldn't be sitting here in front of you today?" But the words never left me. I hate to admit it, but she's right. Enough is enough already. I'm tired of seeing the same diagnosis year after year. But I ended up doing the same exact thing, working late and eating greasy food. Sigh...

I guess the friend I need is me. I need to take better care of myself...and I need to start now.

Lyrics:

Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Suzanne, the plans they made made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to

I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Won't you look down upon me Jesus
You got to help me make a stand
You just got to see me through another day
My body's achin' and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way

Oh I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again

Been walkin' my mind to an easy time
My back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows
It'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line
To talk about things to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground

Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again now
Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things comin' my way this time around now
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you
Fire and rain









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