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"Strange" - Tori Amos

One week later and I'm still breathing. Guess you were right, but no one said it's been easy. 4 days, 3 hours, and 11 minutes since our last conversation. A first in over 5 years. Things ended many times with us, haven't they? But I guess I didn't plan on it ending again so soon. I was prepared for one of our nothing fights and realized shortly after that everything suddenly changed. Your intentions, my mind, our hearts, everything.

I've been going through several ups and downs. Reasons to stay, even more reasons to leave. The thing is this time I don't really have a choice if I'm the only one that's not sure which one to make. Maybe I'll know what I want by next Saturday. Maybe it wouldn't even matter what I want. Maybe next Saturday won't happen. All I know is it will definitely be strange.

I just don't know in what way yet.

Lyrics:

strange
thought i knew you well
thought i had read the sky
thought i had read a change
in your eyes, so strange
woke up to a world
that i am not a part
except when i can play
it's stranger


after all what were you really looking for
and i wonder when will i learn
blue isn't red everybody knows this
and i wonder when will i learn
when will i learn
guess i was in deeper than i thought i was
if i have enough love
for the both of us

"just stay"
you said "we'll build a nest"
so i left my life
tried on your friends
tried on your opinions
so when the bridges froze
and you did not come home
i put our snowflake
under a microscope

after all what was i really looking for
and i wonder when will i learn
maybe my wish knew better than i did
and i wonder when will I learn
when will I learn
guess i was in deeper than i thought i was
if i have enough love
for the both of us

so strange
now i'm finally in
the party has begun
it's not like i can't feel you still
but strange what i will leave behind
you call me one more time

but now i must be leaving


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