Gone Missing

"Already Gone" - Kelly Clarkson

I'm beyond irritated at the moment, but the surprising thing is I'm not showing it. In the midst of packing for weather I'm not at all prepared for, I realized that I needed my "Mama" t-shirt for the Memory Walk tomorrow. It's Laker-purple with a big beautiful picture of my beloved grandmother on the back. I wore it for the first time last year and haven't worn it since. I turned it inside out, washed it and hung it up on the far left-hand side of my itty-bitty closet. I never thought to check twice until today when I noticed it was missing.

I looked everywhere and pretty much had to rearrange my entire closet and drawer space. I pulled out boxes I haven't looked through since the day I moved back home. I checked in places I knew a t-shirt wouldn't be in and being that it's hard to miss, it pissed me off even more that it was nowhere to be found. I even broke my shoe cabinet trying to peer over to the very top shelf! The only thing I found was the purple bandanna from HBO's The Alzheimer's Project I wrapped around my head during the 2008 walk. It was tucked in a corner and from far away, I could've sworn it was my t-shirt. No. Such. Luck.

So you're probably thinking, "It's just a t-shirt." It means more to me than that. Not many people could commit to this year and it hurts to know that a very limited few will be carrying on the torch for Team Mama 2010 so it was important for me to wear something that made her stick out from the rest. It's too late now. The walk is hours away, but this isn't going to stop me from walking.

I know I waited until the last minute to rummage through my mess, but I never thought it wouldn't be where I left it. The only thing I can think of is that it was taken by accident over a month ago...I just can't believe that it wouldn't have been returned.

So if you have it, please give it back.

Lyrics:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

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