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"Ex-Factor" - Lauryn Hill

Ay, Lauryn where did your heart go? Your passion for your music? Your care for your voice? Your quality of sound that was once your art? I waited for you for 4 long hours last night and when you finally showed up, you didn't even thank us for waiting nor apologize for your extreme tardiness. We were standing the whole time to hear what we remembered you used to sound like only to be left with an enormous ego with a not-so-enormous performance.

I chose this song because it's by far one of my favorites. I lived by these lyrics during your early years...during my early years when I was still learning how the whole love thing works. I'm still learning, but I wish I could've seen you then vs. now. Because at least then my hard lessons would've been met with a better soundtrack instead of extending my tired Monday evening with your raspy, rushed ensemble you sadly threw together and called a concert.

Take the Diva crown off, "Miss" Lauryn. It's not worth wearing if your own talents are barely hanging on by a very fine thread. I know you noticed the "boos" and read the reviews. I know you saw the doors open quite a bit with people exiting after only 3 songs in. We were exhausted, disappointed and at a loss on how such greatness can fall so fast. It's not hard to believe, but it was a harsh reality check that letting too much money get in the way can change a person for the worst.

I dare you, once-so-wonderful Lauryn to stop trying to defend how you are to others. To stop plaguing yourself with the thought that what you were doing last night was real singing. I dare you to hear the chants of "Play the CD" get inside your mind and invade your bad attitude with the truth that your losing yourself to what made you good over a decade ago. Your ability and desire to create beautiful songs is being blindsided by your inability to be a strong artist with an even stronger voice. If this weakened, then step down from your hierarchy because it will continue to weaken with your lack of attention to it. If you don't believe me, take a moment to look out to your own audience in front of you. It's not about your perception of who you are, but of how others perceive you. So I ask you, "How do you want us to see you?"

Lyrics:
It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars

Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you'd be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you'd die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won't you live for me


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