"Divine Intervention" - Taking Back Sunday
I didn't know what to say when I heard the news and it's rare for me to be speechless. Sadly, I still don't have the right words to express myself so I'll use this song...I lost a dear friend over the weekend and one today. Both not by choice. I keep losing things beyond my control. I know to never say never, but this time it is never. My friend is gone. It's over... devastatingly over too soon, but I can't accept this. I just won't let it sink in that this is the friend I'll never get to see again.
The only lesson we should be learning from this is how precious life and sudden death can be. Yet people are just lingering and I'm just numb. I haven't cried yet. It's during this time that I fail miserably. It's like I'm trying too hard at something, but my efforts are too weak to even be noticed. I joke a lot and come off awkward as if sympathy has no meaning to me when in fact it means everything. So, I often reach out.
I needed someone in the worst way to let me know that everything will be ok. I didn't want to be alone and this afternoon, I was for a while...My house is going through some restructuring and my bedroom was blocked off by the chaos. In the midst of all the mess, I picked up my phone and called you. I was craving conversation and was hoping for a little peace of mind. And what did you tell me? You told me you could no longer be there for me. I was taken back. Really, we're back to this?
It's sad how you had to leave because you want to do things the "right way." It's sad because you still have much more to learn. It's ok, no worries. I get it. And I hope you get it too one day. I hope you know this circled path you're walking will only lead you back to where you started from because for the first time, it's not you who's confused in which direction to take. It's never been you and it's tough to walk on the other side so watch your step.
As for me, I wasn't looking for anything. I expected nothing in return besides our interesting friendship. Trust me, I know better. I've known better. I just needed a good friend, but we don't know how to do that so it's goodbye once again. I'll take this as a sign. And you're right like he was right over 8-months ago. No, I don't deserve this. Not at all.
So I found the one person that knew exactly how to make me feel better. "Thank you to my older sister for doing what no man has ever done. Thank you for being there and for taking care of me. Thank you for making me feel like I'm worth it. Thank you for dropping everything because I just needed some time. Thank you for making time. Thank you for making me laugh, think, vent, and release all of my frustration onto you. Thank you for carrying it even for a few minutes. Thank you for balancing me out. I needed this so thank you."
Lyrics:
Despondent, distracted,
You're vicious and romantic;
These are a few of my favorite things.
All of those flavors and
This is what you choose:
Past the blues, past the blues,
And on to something new,
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
So if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic,
A real class act.
You see, I know a few of your favorite things.
Five in the morning and all comes out pouring,
Love, out the same way in.
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
Now if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
I said real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
Now if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Mm, mm, mm, mm.
Mm, mm, mmmm.
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/takingbacksunday/divineintervention.html
http://buzzworthy.mtv.com/2009/04/30/got-a-question-for-taking-back-sunday/
I didn't know what to say when I heard the news and it's rare for me to be speechless. Sadly, I still don't have the right words to express myself so I'll use this song...I lost a dear friend over the weekend and one today. Both not by choice. I keep losing things beyond my control. I know to never say never, but this time it is never. My friend is gone. It's over... devastatingly over too soon, but I can't accept this. I just won't let it sink in that this is the friend I'll never get to see again.
The only lesson we should be learning from this is how precious life and sudden death can be. Yet people are just lingering and I'm just numb. I haven't cried yet. It's during this time that I fail miserably. It's like I'm trying too hard at something, but my efforts are too weak to even be noticed. I joke a lot and come off awkward as if sympathy has no meaning to me when in fact it means everything. So, I often reach out.
I needed someone in the worst way to let me know that everything will be ok. I didn't want to be alone and this afternoon, I was for a while...My house is going through some restructuring and my bedroom was blocked off by the chaos. In the midst of all the mess, I picked up my phone and called you. I was craving conversation and was hoping for a little peace of mind. And what did you tell me? You told me you could no longer be there for me. I was taken back. Really, we're back to this?
It's sad how you had to leave because you want to do things the "right way." It's sad because you still have much more to learn. It's ok, no worries. I get it. And I hope you get it too one day. I hope you know this circled path you're walking will only lead you back to where you started from because for the first time, it's not you who's confused in which direction to take. It's never been you and it's tough to walk on the other side so watch your step.
As for me, I wasn't looking for anything. I expected nothing in return besides our interesting friendship. Trust me, I know better. I've known better. I just needed a good friend, but we don't know how to do that so it's goodbye once again. I'll take this as a sign. And you're right like he was right over 8-months ago. No, I don't deserve this. Not at all.
So I found the one person that knew exactly how to make me feel better. "Thank you to my older sister for doing what no man has ever done. Thank you for being there and for taking care of me. Thank you for making me feel like I'm worth it. Thank you for dropping everything because I just needed some time. Thank you for making time. Thank you for making me laugh, think, vent, and release all of my frustration onto you. Thank you for carrying it even for a few minutes. Thank you for balancing me out. I needed this so thank you."
Lyrics:Despondent, distracted,
You're vicious and romantic;
These are a few of my favorite things.
All of those flavors and
This is what you choose:
Past the blues, past the blues,
And on to something new,
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
So if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic,
A real class act.
You see, I know a few of your favorite things.
Five in the morning and all comes out pouring,
Love, out the same way in.
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
Now if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Something real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
I said real, make it timeless,
An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
Now if you're calling me out,
Then count me out.
Mm, mm, mm, mm.
Mm, mm, mmmm.
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/takingbacksunday/divineintervention.html
http://buzzworthy.mtv.com/2009/04/30/got-a-question-for-taking-back-sunday/
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