"Wreck of the Day" - Anna Nalick
There's so much in my head, but I have no idea why. Seriously. No. Idea. I have a story to tell that has absolutely nothing to do with anything, but I guess today is one of those days where I simply just don't want to make sense.
I was driving my usual route this morning when a tan, 4-door car entered the freeway. The car was moving at an average speed, but just as it was about to kick into gear, it started to swerve. I saw this from the corner of my eye and slowed down enough to stay to the left of it. Suddenly, it lost complete control and spun out, twisting its way back to the side of the freeway with a metal-pounding "thud." It somehow landed sideways against the hill with pieces of its broken bumper left scattered ahead.
Through the windshield, I could make out pale, frail arms still gripping the steering wheel, but I was going too fast to see a face. And so I passed it by... I looked in the rear view mirror before turning the corner to see if any other cars would pull over, but instead I saw more cars do what I just did. And so I continued to drive...
I'm embarrassed to admit this, but in a state of shock I left the scene. I tried to justify this by reassuring myself that, "Someone else will do it," but sadly from what I saw no one else did. I know this means nothing now, but the thought of being in an accident and seeing people pass me by would be even more frightening than the accident itself. So, what would've been the right thing to do?
My instinct changed speed and lanes in the nick of time and yet it didn't react quickly enough to help. I felt horrible, but still kept going. I felt guilty, but never turned back to do something about it. So I started making excuses.
"I could've easily been hit by other cars."
"This would've caused more accidents."
"Someone will call for help."
"Nobody was physically hurt."
"I wouldn't have been able to do much anyway."
"I wouldn't have known what to do."
"Someone else will know what to do..."
So, let's just hope someone did. Please don't judge me. I'm judging myself enough as it is. Honestly, I drew a blank right at that moment. I often close in when I feel like something bad is about to happen... Then something did and I did nothing. It's not because I didn't want to. It's not because I saw no need to. It's just...well it's what happened. I know we're supposed to help one another, but I fled. I have no idea why I did it. I just did. I hate to say that if I were to do it over again, I probably would've made the same mistake. Should I have done something? Ya, I suppose I should've stopped... Maybe I could've stopped, but I just drove away.
Lyrics:
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/annanalick/wreckoftheday.html
http://profile.ak.fbcdn.net/hprofile-ak-snc4/41589_2200277220_9044_n.jpg
There's so much in my head, but I have no idea why. Seriously. No. Idea. I have a story to tell that has absolutely nothing to do with anything, but I guess today is one of those days where I simply just don't want to make sense.
I was driving my usual route this morning when a tan, 4-door car entered the freeway. The car was moving at an average speed, but just as it was about to kick into gear, it started to swerve. I saw this from the corner of my eye and slowed down enough to stay to the left of it. Suddenly, it lost complete control and spun out, twisting its way back to the side of the freeway with a metal-pounding "thud." It somehow landed sideways against the hill with pieces of its broken bumper left scattered ahead.
Through the windshield, I could make out pale, frail arms still gripping the steering wheel, but I was going too fast to see a face. And so I passed it by... I looked in the rear view mirror before turning the corner to see if any other cars would pull over, but instead I saw more cars do what I just did. And so I continued to drive...
I'm embarrassed to admit this, but in a state of shock I left the scene. I tried to justify this by reassuring myself that, "Someone else will do it," but sadly from what I saw no one else did. I know this means nothing now, but the thought of being in an accident and seeing people pass me by would be even more frightening than the accident itself. So, what would've been the right thing to do?
My instinct changed speed and lanes in the nick of time and yet it didn't react quickly enough to help. I felt horrible, but still kept going. I felt guilty, but never turned back to do something about it. So I started making excuses.
"I could've easily been hit by other cars."
"This would've caused more accidents."
"Someone will call for help."
"Nobody was physically hurt."
"I wouldn't have been able to do much anyway."
"I wouldn't have known what to do."
"Someone else will know what to do..."
So, let's just hope someone did. Please don't judge me. I'm judging myself enough as it is. Honestly, I drew a blank right at that moment. I often close in when I feel like something bad is about to happen... Then something did and I did nothing. It's not because I didn't want to. It's not because I saw no need to. It's just...well it's what happened. I know we're supposed to help one another, but I fled. I have no idea why I did it. I just did. I hate to say that if I were to do it over again, I probably would've made the same mistake. Should I have done something? Ya, I suppose I should've stopped... Maybe I could've stopped, but I just drove away.
Lyrics:
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/annanalick/wreckoftheday.html
http://profile.ak.fbcdn.net/hprofile-ak-snc4/41589_2200277220_9044_n.jpg
Comments
Post a Comment