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"What Can I Say" - Carrie Underwood feat. Sons of Sylvia

One of the hardest things in life is to move forward. This is why we often look back... I knew we'd start off like we've never stopped. It was a little awkward at first, but that was a given. You seemed pretty nervous and a bit out of place in my environment. A place you haven't been in for over 10 months. It was kinda nice to see you stumble around in what used to be your comfort zone, trying to search for the right words. I knew it wasn't going to be anything different from what's already been said, but it's definitely different seeing you say it.

To tell you the truth, I wanted more. I brought the tissue for more. But surprisingly, it was the picture that did it. He looked so grown and the glasses are amazing on him. And if it wasn't for a few nosey people staring at me filled with tears, I probably wouldn't have stopped so soon. It's just looking at him a year older and not being able to have that year with him...not being there across the table and seeing him directly in front of me as you took that picture...just not being there...it hurt like hell.

I was suddenly angry, sad, disappointed, and confused at my decision to be there with you, but yet there I was. I didn't want to leave. I couldn't. It was a weird feeling to be in the same vicinity as you and not be an "us," you know? It almost felt like we were on a first date. Honestly, I was hoping for another March day at Starbucks. I do have to admit that I had butterflies in my stomach and the whole, "What will he think of me?" jitters leading up to our reunion. Although I know current circumstances obviously changed things. Plus, your stories didn't exactly "wow" me either. It was exciting and annoying at the same time. Almost like riding an emotionally-charged roller coaster hoping that I don't embarrass myself by throwing up after.

I wanted to say so much, but everything was jumbled up in my mind. I should've brought note cards. I'm better when I write things down. But I had my moments... you had a few yourself. "Goose-sized void," ya that burned just a little too. Sigh... We didn't create a sense of closure nor did we open a can of worms. Come to think of it, we really don't have any idea what we're really doing here, do we? But hey what can we say?

Lyrics:

Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse
But I wish that I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the words to say

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
So what can I say?
What can I say?
What can I say?

I hate to think all you had of me
(I said all I had to say)
Is a memory I left you,
Space between what was meant to be
(In letters I threw away)
And the mess that it turned into

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?
What can I say?
What can I say?


http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/underwood-carrie/what-can-i-say-28521.html
http://www.nashville.com/music/2011/01
http://www.hotzoneonline.com/archives/6099

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