All Right

"Everything's Gonna Be Alright" - Bob Marley

I've been avoiding you, I know. I'm trying not to exhaust myself, but I'm a bit burnt out from blogging. I don't want to write because "I have to" even if at times, I'm afraid you would forget about me if I don't try. But this is supposed to be about me, right? So if I feel like I'm losing sight of that, well then I'll take a break. Sometimes my break can last longer than others, but as long as I don't let a whole month roll by I figured I could get away with a few days. It'll help me gather up more things to write about. It's the "sorting out" part that drives me nuts! The finding the right songs and then the finding out that they've been deleted from playlist (arghhhhhhhh!!!!)... It's when this happens that this whole thing seems to be hurting more than it's helping, but I gotta take that chance. Or else I'll end up quitting all over again.

I can't stop now because this has been my way to cope and for the most part, communicate...but I've had my moments when things don't turn out the way I want them to or they change somehow (video won't play, song disappeared, or worse...the feeling I felt when I wrote an entry no longer comes through once I read it). It's this that provokes me so terribly to turn on the TV vs. this computer. Lie in bed vs. sit upright in this chair. Thinking about what to write vs. actually writing. Like now...Instead of writing about something, I'm writing about why I'm flustered with writing, which is technically something, but not the something I should be focusing on anymore.

I'm trying to find my happy place; this place of zen that people keep ravin' about. Where the f@$k is this place?! I think it was where I was mentally that one week when every post just came out naturally and I didn't have to feel like sh*t or be so freakin' angry at you, at life, or at these awful string of useless men. I just wrote. I'll get there again. I know I will because I feel it slowly rising from within me (could be gas though hahahaha...). I don't know. I just feel like I'm on this endless road. Sometimes I'm moving fast. Sometimes I'm moving slow. But as long as I'm moving freely I know I'll be all right.

Lyrics:

Don't worry about a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right
Singin', "Don't worry about a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou"

Singin', "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin', "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin', "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"
Singin', "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"Cuz every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin', "Don't worry about a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
Singin', "Don't worry about a thing,
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin', "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!
Cuz every little thing gonna be all right"

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