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"Come Home" - One Republic feat. Sara Bareilles








Almost a week rolled by Dear Blog and it's only half-way done. I'm sitting here, alone in a very quaint hotel room, right across the street from a pretigious college campus. I'm typing away on my laptop that's on a small wooden desk against a tiny balcony overlooking a cafe filled with anxious students cramming for finals in front of a laptop of their own. I'm so close that I could see their ceramic mugs need some refilling. As I sit and stare out, I somehow find myself feeling what it must've felt like to be in a dorm far away from home.

I'm stuck in so many ways and yet at this moment, in this historical building that smells like a dusty library book, I feel free. This space is welcoming to me. I miss my family and have no friends here, but rather than sulk about it I shared my Chinese take-out with a cool chic at the front desk. I don't have my car, but without it I'm allowing myself to slowly pass secret shops along the way to work every morning. Mornings...funny how this is not a time I enjoy when I'm in my comfort zone, but yet I discover the beauty of an early start elsewhere.

I bundle up to stay warm in this crisp, Bay air. I pull my backpack over my shoulders, securely strap in my laptop inside its carrying case, plug in my headsets and go. I pass other people who look and dress like me and watch as they continue towards school as I turn the corner to settle for something I know I'm worth more than... Something that I fell into and have yet to feel it be the something I've always wanted.

I want to do what I love. And I don't have to study so hard in order to love it. I want to learn something profound everyday and to write about it in a way that gets others to want their own somethings just as much.

It could be to find a significant other to match you...finally. It could be to challenge yourself everyday so you don't feel so drained with what you know you can do and yet don't do anything about. It could be purchasing that dream home, car, vacation to simply explore, or just some sort of prized possession you never thought you could afford just for the sake of saying that now you could afford it. It's revisiting an idea and actually seeing it unfold in front of you. It's revisiting a past and making it fall in your favor this time around or seeking a future you never thought possible only to go for it because what do you really have to lose?

I don't know. I guess I'm in this kind of mood. Been in it for awhile. Yet now I don't feel so lost amongst strangers. I don't feel so heartbroken. I feel like the sudden wind lifted me up from what's been holding me back in order for me to see that I don't necessarily have to come home to be home.

Lyrics:

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say to you..

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything I see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeah
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home


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