"My Grown Up Christmas List" - Kelly Clarkson
I'm not so sure I even know where to begin on this Christmas day. In less than 24 hours, I felt every emotion imaginable. But before I get into mine, let me start by telling other people's stories.
A fairly new couple who have only been dating for about a year got engaged. He is a pretty successful guy, confident in his profession and stable in his home. She is a carefree spirit with a steady career. On Christmas Eve in front of his family and their friends, she sat unwrapping present after present until finally reaching a big box carefully placed in the center of the room. Distracted with all the commotion, she opens it only to discover another box after another box after yet another. She rummaged through the tissue paper, pulling out the box not even realizing he was kneeling before her. "Here let me help you with that," he said. But she was too quick and opened it. Stunned beyond belief, she immediately burst into tears.
Not too far away was another couple on the brink of a divorce. He is a strong man with a lot of growing up to do. She is an even stronger woman who needs more than he will ever be able to offer her. They're too similar where it's disastrous and too different where compatibility is necessary that finally on a night of what should've been a joyous occasion, it all came crashing down. A huge misunderstanding blew up into ridiculous proportions and the debris knocked everyone nearby completely off guard.
Two couples. Two dramatically different stories. On one hand, I watched a video proposal to start a beautiful life together and on the other, I witnessed in person a traumatizing breakup. So, where do I fit? I'm in the middle. I'm feeling everything there is to feel. And to top it all off, I feel like I have to do something when it's not my place to do anything. I feel responsible when it's not a problem I created nor should fix. So for now I'm just trying to look at the upside; that a couple who loves each other is willing to make that love official and that a couple who doesn't make each other happy will finally leave each other in search for something or someone that does.
As for me? I'm happy to have found a man that is willing and able to be the man that fits me perfectly, but yet he's not here. So I can't help, but feel a bit empty. I want to be excited, but I'm only moody. I'm letting others around me effect how I feel and it's hard not to when the reason I should feel fulfilled is miles and miles away. If only he was here, then everything would make sense again.
Lyrics:
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up Christmas list
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/kellyclarkson/mygrownupchristmaslist.html
http://www.justinvaughn.com/?tag=christmas
I'm not so sure I even know where to begin on this Christmas day. In less than 24 hours, I felt every emotion imaginable. But before I get into mine, let me start by telling other people's stories.
A fairly new couple who have only been dating for about a year got engaged. He is a pretty successful guy, confident in his profession and stable in his home. She is a carefree spirit with a steady career. On Christmas Eve in front of his family and their friends, she sat unwrapping present after present until finally reaching a big box carefully placed in the center of the room. Distracted with all the commotion, she opens it only to discover another box after another box after yet another. She rummaged through the tissue paper, pulling out the box not even realizing he was kneeling before her. "Here let me help you with that," he said. But she was too quick and opened it. Stunned beyond belief, she immediately burst into tears.
Not too far away was another couple on the brink of a divorce. He is a strong man with a lot of growing up to do. She is an even stronger woman who needs more than he will ever be able to offer her. They're too similar where it's disastrous and too different where compatibility is necessary that finally on a night of what should've been a joyous occasion, it all came crashing down. A huge misunderstanding blew up into ridiculous proportions and the debris knocked everyone nearby completely off guard.
Two couples. Two dramatically different stories. On one hand, I watched a video proposal to start a beautiful life together and on the other, I witnessed in person a traumatizing breakup. So, where do I fit? I'm in the middle. I'm feeling everything there is to feel. And to top it all off, I feel like I have to do something when it's not my place to do anything. I feel responsible when it's not a problem I created nor should fix. So for now I'm just trying to look at the upside; that a couple who loves each other is willing to make that love official and that a couple who doesn't make each other happy will finally leave each other in search for something or someone that does.
As for me? I'm happy to have found a man that is willing and able to be the man that fits me perfectly, but yet he's not here. So I can't help, but feel a bit empty. I want to be excited, but I'm only moody. I'm letting others around me effect how I feel and it's hard not to when the reason I should feel fulfilled is miles and miles away. If only he was here, then everything would make sense again.
Lyrics:
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up Christmas list
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/kellyclarkson/mygrownupchristmaslist.html
http://www.justinvaughn.com/?tag=christmas
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