"A Sorta Fairytale" - Tori Amos
Hello my beautiful blog. Exactly one month from now my world will change completely. I knew September would hold more than a 2-year old broken heart and it took just that long for me to realize that the break was necessary for such an astounding and life-altering experience to occur. No, I'm not getting married (at least not yet) and no, I'm not pregnant (and trust me, when that happens it would be by a man who loves me and whom I truly love).
Although this excruciatingly hot August still isn't over, it marks the end of what I've been used to all this time. People say it's common to feel anxious, overwhelmed, unsure, and in a daze, but I feel none of these. I merely say it to agree with them since obviously, everyone tends to have an opinion regardless if being asked. Some are solid, some contrast, and some make absolutely no sense. I take it for face value and know that they all mean well. There's the pros, the cons, and the in-between's, but what should matter is where I stand and what I strongly believe in, and this I just can't predict. Even though I knew the when, how, where, what and even the why, I can't ever be too certain. Not to say that I'm going in blind, but I've learned that certainty is foolish and preparation is key.
I'm baffled by the reaction I've received so far with the decision I've made and I will continue to feel this way within the next few weeks. It comes with the territory. However, this tug o'war between my heart and mind subsided when things started to settle down enough for me to know what it is I really want. For the first time, I stopped questioning whether or not I should do it and well... just did. I'm hopeful that once it all becomes permanent I can sit back and relax. It's going to take a minute, but I have to admit I'm not afraid. Frankly, I'm looking forward to the adjustment. I like movement and am embracing the idea of change because it is my choice.
I'm moving at my own pace out of a routine that I no longer wish to follow. I'm confident that although it took me longer than most to find my stride, I'm beyond excited to take the first, initial step. Stumbling goes without saying, but this time I'm not relying on a bumbling idiot to catch me when I fall. I'm relying on myself, but I'm glad that the main person on the other end actually knows what he's doing and how important it is for me to find my own footing. It's still in my nature to look to others for support, but this time I'm bringing my own net.
Lyrics (extended version):
on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
i could pick back up
whenever i feel
down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said
way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/toriamos/asortafairytale.html
http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/asortafairytale.html
Hello my beautiful blog. Exactly one month from now my world will change completely. I knew September would hold more than a 2-year old broken heart and it took just that long for me to realize that the break was necessary for such an astounding and life-altering experience to occur. No, I'm not getting married (at least not yet) and no, I'm not pregnant (and trust me, when that happens it would be by a man who loves me and whom I truly love).
Although this excruciatingly hot August still isn't over, it marks the end of what I've been used to all this time. People say it's common to feel anxious, overwhelmed, unsure, and in a daze, but I feel none of these. I merely say it to agree with them since obviously, everyone tends to have an opinion regardless if being asked. Some are solid, some contrast, and some make absolutely no sense. I take it for face value and know that they all mean well. There's the pros, the cons, and the in-between's, but what should matter is where I stand and what I strongly believe in, and this I just can't predict. Even though I knew the when, how, where, what and even the why, I can't ever be too certain. Not to say that I'm going in blind, but I've learned that certainty is foolish and preparation is key.
I'm baffled by the reaction I've received so far with the decision I've made and I will continue to feel this way within the next few weeks. It comes with the territory. However, this tug o'war between my heart and mind subsided when things started to settle down enough for me to know what it is I really want. For the first time, I stopped questioning whether or not I should do it and well... just did. I'm hopeful that once it all becomes permanent I can sit back and relax. It's going to take a minute, but I have to admit I'm not afraid. Frankly, I'm looking forward to the adjustment. I like movement and am embracing the idea of change because it is my choice.
I'm moving at my own pace out of a routine that I no longer wish to follow. I'm confident that although it took me longer than most to find my stride, I'm beyond excited to take the first, initial step. Stumbling goes without saying, but this time I'm not relying on a bumbling idiot to catch me when I fall. I'm relying on myself, but I'm glad that the main person on the other end actually knows what he's doing and how important it is for me to find my own footing. It's still in my nature to look to others for support, but this time I'm bringing my own net.
Lyrics (extended version):
on my way up northup on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
i could pick back up
whenever i feel
down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said
way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/toriamos/asortafairytale.html
http://www.yessaid.com/lyrics/asortafairytale.html
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