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Shut Up and Show It

"A Beautiful Mess" - Jason Mraz It's not something to be ashamed of. It's your body and you make it for what it is. If you see yourself as ugly, then that's what others will see. If you see yourself as too skinny, too chunky, too lengthy, too short, too pale, too dark, too disproportionate, then it's you who makes you ugly. Inside and out. And you know it. So look at you, all of you and portray the image that people have so desperately tried to show you. You're not exactly how you want to be nor how you want to look like and that's ok. But you're soft, natural, and in time you may be more than what you're giving yourself credit for. Don't stare in awe or glare in disgust. Just take a glance and be appreciative that you have two eyes that can see, a mouth that can speak, ears that can hear, a tongue that can taste, a nose that can smell and awesomely, amazing hair. Don't deny the privilege to say, "Thank you" when given a compl...

Big Black Books

"Eyes on Fire" - Blue Foundation I'm going to do yet another something I've never done before. This is becoming a trend-setter for me, I know. I love feeling motivated no matter how small it may seem to others, because anything I haven't done is something huge to me. So, what is this new found goal I've set for myself? I'm going to read these four, famous, big, thick, black books in a row. Books with no pictures in them and not because I miss writing book reports. This is for me. I write what I want, remember? I just figured that since this is the year of doing NEW things and finding my so-called niche if you will, well hey a writer is supposed to read right? Alright, so let this writer take it seriously for a change. Let me expose myself to an accomplished piece of literature. Maybe you're wondering, "Why of all series to choose from, did she pick this?" To be honest, I didn't. But I have to admit, something happened mid-month that spar...

Someday

"These Days" - Foo Fighters Oh Foo, my boo. Let's hope they hear you. Loud and clear. Hiding over there. They'll play you out I'm sure. When they too, realize there's no cure. But I heard it when I needed to and isn't that what music is supposed to do? To heal you? Well, this? All of this here? Helped relieved my sudden fear of trying again. And when I do? And they come back, dear Foo. I just won't be here for them. Lyrics: One of these days the ground will drop out from beneath your feet One of these days your heart will stop and play its final beat One of these days the clocks will stop and time won't mean a thing One of these days their bombs will drop and silence everything But it's alright Yeah it's alright I said it's alright Easy for you to say Your heart has never been broken Your pride has never been stolen Not yet not yet One of these days I bet your heart'll be broken I bet your pride'll be stolen I bet ...

Me Too

"The One That Got Away" - Katy Perry Ya, uh-huh, yup, sure, all right, ok, no prob, of course, you said it, totally, definitely, without a doubt, precisely, yep, exactly, fair enough, I'm with you, for real, obviously, agreed. We will always be the ones that got away. And I think we're better off this way too. Lyrics: Summer after high school when we first met We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead And on my 18th Birthday We got matching tattoos Used to steal your parents' liquor And climb to the roof Talk about our future Like we had a clue Never planned that one day I'd be losing you In another life I would be your girl We'd keep all our promises Be us against the world In another life I would make you stay So I don't have to say You were the one that got away The one that got away I was June and you were my Johnny Cash Never one without the other we made a pact Sometimes when I miss you I put those records on Someone said you had your tattoo rem...

No Words

"It Will Rain" - Bruno Mars He sings like he's in so much pain; like someone is literally pulling his heart apart. But it's the haunting "ooh's" that makes this genuine. If only I could hear this song without words because these words no longer apply...because there are no words to describe the emptiness I still feel when the holidays roll by. One whole year. You're almost done. Please let me be done too. Lyrics: If you ever leave me, baby, Leave some morphine at my door Cuz it would take a whole lot of medication To realize what we used to have, We don't have it anymore. There's no religion that could save me No matter how long my knees are on the floor So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin' To keep you by my side To keep you from walkin' out the door. Cuz there'll be no sunlight If I lose you, baby There'll be no clear skies If I lose you, baby Just like the clouds My eyes will do the same, if you walk away ...

Most

"Flightless Bird American Mouth" - Iron & Wine I listen to this and think back to a time when love felt so real that even I had to sit back and wonder how this all could've happened to me. I think back not wanting it again, but being happy that I had the chance more than once in my life to love like this and be loved even more so in return. This is when I felt my most beautiful. This is what this song fills me with now that I don't feel anything at all. Lyrics: I was a quick-wit boy Diving too deep for coins All of your street light eyes Wide on my plastic toys Then when the cops closed the fair I cut my long baby hair Stole me a dog-eared map And called for you everywhere Have I found you? Flightless bird, jealous, weeping Or lost you? American mouth Big pill looming Now I'm a fat house cat Nursing my sore blunt tongue Watching the warm poison rats Curl through the wide fence cracks Pissing on magazine photos Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and cle...

Funny, Interesting, Cool

"After Midnight" - Blink 182 You better "like" this cuz you'd be the only one that didn't like it and that'd be so, so, so sad. So just click on it. You know you want to. Give it the credit it deserves. Move that cursor. Go on now. I know you know what to do. Let the arrow guide you. It knows better. Much, much better than you. It knows its purpose is to show value to what matters most. I'm glad Blink's back. It didn't make sense that they had to break up because they were so good together. Their last album before this is intoxicating to me. Their music made perfect sense, but then they stopped listening to each other and f@$ked it all up. It took a tragedy (unfortunately) and a bit of common sense (fortunately) for them to realize that no matter what other side projects they had going on and no matter who they attempted to collaborate with, they only enjoyed minimal success. Never the status and range we've seen them reach in the past....

Right About Now

"Roslyn" - Bon Iver & St. Vincent You know what would be good right about now? A giant mug filled with chili top ramen noodles. I'd twirl the noodles with a fork and conveniently drink the broth when I'm done. I miss that right about now. Lyrics: Up with your turret Aren't we just terrified? Shale, screen your worry from what you won't ever find Don't let it fool you Don't let it fool you...down Dancing around, folds in her gown Sea and the rock below Cocked to the undertow Bones blood and teeth erode, with every crashing node Wings wouldn't help you Wings wouldn't help you...down Down fills the ground, gravity's proud You barely are blinking Wagging your face around When'd this just become a mortal home? Won't, won't, won't, won't Won't let you talk me Won't let you talk me…down Will pull it taut, nothing let out http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/newmoon/roslyn.htm Image

Morning Commute

"Clair De Lune" - Debussy When I'm stuck in traffic for 4-days straight, trying my best to stay awake as I slowly inch my way down the 110 to the 10, there's only so much I can do to keep my sanity. So, I studied all the cracks severed within the tired pavement and noticed more potholes winning against tires that should've been changed months ago. I figured that cars blocking the shoulder with their emergency lights glaring was the reason for the delay, but no. There's just too many damn cars attempting to reach the same place at the same time as I am. The beauty of a busy city during a morning commute is that there's a lot to see when you're not moving. The graffiti alone is spectacular or spectacularly messy. There is definitely a distinction between creative art and ridiculous tagging, but the amazing feat is just how the "artists" managed to get up there and not be seen. What made them want to spray paint this against such a big slab of c...

Yes, You!

"You Are A Tourist" - Death Cab for Cutie Hey you! Yes, you. You're a ruined soul, you know but you're in there somewhere aren't you? I'm talking to your cracked heart and negative mind. Are they listening because you haven't been. You blocked me out you stubborn little thing. Are you seeing me wave at you from a near distance? I'm here sipping an upside down machiato to help soothe your draining energy from that anxiety it feels every time change is around the corner. Hey you! Yes, You. Your imperfections make you flawless. Your sadness makes you real. Is that why you're playing this role still? To help you feel? It's getting old and wearing you down. You're getting tired and there's nothing around to make you this tired that you can't bounce back from. It's not going to do it by itself. Not with you there thinking things evolve around you when it's you who should grab what makes you evolve. Hey you! Yes, you. Your lack of ...

Full Circle

"We Found Love" - Rihanna feat. Calvin Harris At first I thought, "God I hate this song!" All she does is repeat herself. So you found love in a hopeless place, and? Get in line, sweetie! But then I saw this video and something clicked inside. It made a deafening sound and resonated quite a lot within me. It's strange really because the only Rihanna song I posted did the exact same thing. It's the only post without a title. Now, although it feels like I've come full circle, at times it seems I'm no better than where I started from. Yet, I keep moving. Even if I know there will be moments when I feel too dizzy to stand. I'll keep moving and will eventually find my footing enough not to look back. Lyrics: It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear You almost feel ashamed That someone could be that important That without them, you feel like nothing No one will ever understand how much it hurts You feel hopeless; like nothing can save...

Round & Round I Go

"What Goes Around Comes Around" - Justin Timberlake "Damn, why can't you just give in and let me win?! Why does it have to be an eye for an eye?" - Them I'm not sure if I've always had such thick skin. Actually, I think I was a bit of a pu$$y back then, but I'm just not sure how far back when. It seems that I've earned my stars with the men and surprisingly, they're smitten about me being a smarta$$. Go figure. What's even funnier is that I'm not trying hard at all. I'm being myself...the self that most of my friends advised me not to be. Here's a good example. I went out with this adorable, fun-loving, loves-to-have-fun couple this passed Thursday. (I've been going out a lot with the holiday season approaching. It's about that time for me to be as far away from my memories as possible). Anyway, my friend's boyfriend was one of the nominees for the Los Angeles Music Awards and I was one of their plus ones at this ...

Switch It Up

"N*gg@s in Paris" - JayZ & Kanye West Because I don't listen to just one genre and this here song carries a damn, good beat. Lyrics: Jimmy: "We're going to skate to one song and one song only." So I ball so hard muhf@$kas wanna fine me... So I ball so hard muhf@$kas wanna fine me But first n*gg@s gotta find me What’s 50 grand to a muhf@$ka like me Can you please remind me? Ball so hard, this sh*t crazy Y’all don’t know that don’t sh*t phase me The Nets could go 0-82 and I look at you like this sh*t gravy Ball so hard, this sh*t weird We ain’t even s’pose to be here, Ball so hard, since we here It’s only right that we be fair Psycho, I’m liable to go Michael Take your pick, Jackson, Tyson, Jordan, Game 6 Ball so hard, got a broke clock, Rolleys that don’t tick tock Audemars that’s losing time, hidden behind all these big rocks Ball so hard, I’m shocked too, I’m supposed to be locked up too If you escaped what I’ve escaped You’d be in Paris getting f@$ked...

Bump

"Kush" - Dr. Dre feat. Snoop Dogg, Akon & Sly Pyper So he said to me, "This is not gettin' the play it deserves." And I responded, "Because Nate's not on it. Nate would've given Kush the extra push to make the good, great." He concurred. "But push or not, Kush is still something you wanna bump," he added. I laughed. "You don't bump Kush, you smoke it." (But I didn't say that...I thought it). I should've said it. Lyrics: Roll up, wait a minute Let me put some kush up in it Roll up, wait a minute Let me put some kush up in it Roll up, wait a minute Let me put some kush up in it Roll up, wait a minute Let me put some kush up in it Now this that puff puff pass sh*t that Cheech and Chong grass sh*t blunts to the head, kush spillin' no mattress speed boat traffic, b*ches automatic cross that line, f@$k around and get yo a$$ kicked we roll sh*t that burn slow as f@$king molasses probably won't pass it, s...

Remix

"I Got 5 On It" - Luniz feat. Richie Rich, Spice 1, E-40, Shock G This song is so damn hood it'll never get old. I don't care who you are. If you grew up listening to ghetto rap in the 90's, this was definitely a part of your playlist. I don't know how many burnt cds I "lost" to the guys who had to "borrow" them because this was on it. I bet you they still dust it off and listen to it. There's no way you can enjoy this type of music and NOT know this track because no matter how you look at it, it definitely made an impact. It's all about the remix. Lyrics: Haha, the remix - 5 on it! We creepin' in too, baby We got 5 on ery'thang mane! We got Dru Down; we got the Luniz! Shock G, wassup? Notes goin' to Yukmouth! Richie Rich, E-40, Spice Hurricane You say you got 5 on my tender, you can bend her over the table But be sure that you bring my stallion back to my stable Say, brah? No elementary school-ground playing Not a 5-dol...

Almost to Never

"Almost Lover" - A Fine Frenzy Hey, I had my first date yesterday. I'm pretty sure you don't care to know, but I'll tell you anyway. Maybe it hurts you. Maybe hurt is beyond what you can feel right now. Maybe you're fooling yourself. Maybe you're not. But it's not about you here. It's about me. Finally. And let me tell you that I haven't enjoyed myself this much in a long time. No, I didn't find Mr. Perfect. I'm not looking for him anymore. But I have to admit it was nice not having to plan, pay, and be the one to take care of someone even when they don't want to be taken care of. Oh, he has flaws. You have plenty. But it's not about that. It should've never been about that with you. We sat, chat, ate, laughed, smiled, and laughed some more. And it wasn't one of those "we're laughing because we're nervous or laughing to be polite." It was genuine and it's been hard to face this reality that another ...

Back Then

"A Little Bit Stronger" - Sara Evans Wow, this was my first week without you in case you ever really wondered what it must've been like for me...minus the video monologues. It wouldn't have been a good idea recording the way I looked back then. "Back then," as if 13 months ago was so far away. Lyrics: Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain But I brushed my teeth anyway, got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face I got a little bit stronger. Riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt So I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger. And I'm done hoping that we can work it out I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels Letting you drag my heart around And ohhh I'm done thinking, that you could ever change I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling my...

That Is All

"Dreams" - Fleetwood Mac Every time it rains...this song comes to mind. Every time. That is all. Lyrics: Now here you go again You say you want your freedom Well who am I to keep you down It's only right that you should Play the way you feel it But listen carefully to the sound Of your loneliness Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad In the stillness of remembering what you had And what you lost... And what you had... And what you lost Thunder only happens when it's raining Players only love you when they're playing Say... Women... they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean... you'll know Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions I keep my visions to myself It's only me Who wants to wrap around your dreams and... Have you any dreams you'd like to sell? Dreams of loneliness... Like a heartbeat... drives you mad... In the stillness of remembering what you had... And what you lost... And what you had... And what you lost Thunder only ...

First, Initial Instinct

"Young Folks" - Peter Bjorn & John feat. Victoria Bergsman Album: Writer's Block Release: June 2006 Why I find this information interesting is something I'm sure you know. What a whirlwind of a year that was, huh? But it was definitely filled with good times. I heard this song while casually eavesdropping on a conversation that I had no business being a part of. Hey, it was an open space in a public place with people who fail at an attempt to create "indoor voices" so in other words, fair game. The whistling was too catchy! According to Wikipedia, this was originally just a tune that would eventually be replaced by an actual instrument but they decided to leave it. Glad they did. Sometimes going with your first, initial instinct is by far the best way to go. So, where have I been these last two days? Dealing with a virus in my computer and whatever the hell kinda icky-sicky feeling that's fortunately going away. Oh, and of course dating . Gotta love ...

C U Next Tuesday

"Stupid Girl" - Garbage I was trying not to write about this, I truly was. I didn't want to add more attention to this publicity stunt, bullsh*t spectacle from D-rated celebrities but dammit, I just can't shake it off! It's been bugging the hell out of me for the last 2-days although, I'm quite surprised that it's not as BIG a deal as we all thought it would be when it was all over. I guess we were expecting it to last at least 7-months. Geez, if it weren't for the obvious tabloids, Facebook and TMZ gushing over it, I'd be completely clueless... Gotta love my awesomely cruel paparazzi. But really Kim Kardashian?! Really? After dropping $10 million on an overblown, Godly wedding ceremony and an excruciatingly painful, super-platinum reception, you decided in a mere 72 freakin' days that, "Nah, marriage just isn't for me?!" People are dying in several parts of the world including right in the heart of this very city. They're wit...